I replay you in my mind, over and over,.
Like the loved, beautiful song in my head, all night, I cannot sleep with you on repeat.
I close my eyes, and wait for the inevitable chorus of you; the echoes of your lavish touch, the way our silences created this beautiful harmony. The lyrics that hinted at some impossible understanding of my soul and reminded me how you gave me a blanket because I couldn’t leave and then kissed me while I closed my eyes and opened my heart.
Next comes the minor key change, the harmony scales tipped dangerously, the forlorn soft sad lyrics of coulds and shoulds, the scathing inventory of fundamental failings.
I lie here, my eyes wide open, this insomniac song on repeat. I long for the closed eyes kiss to let me go.